A woman was referred to me due to her depression that was affecting her health. She was a Christian woman who faithfully attended church with her husband and had never been on antidepressants; she said that she refused to give in to the pressure of her doctors to take medications for her depression.
I asked her when she first became depressed and she told me that she became depressed as a child. She had a little boyfriend at age 7 whom she liked a lot, and one day he laid his head down on his desk in class and died of a brain aneurism. This led to her first bout of depression. Then at age 19 she was engaged to a young man who joined the military and died in Vietnam. She met another man and married him when she was 26 years old, and he died in a car accident. She married her second husband in her 40s and he died a few years later from cancer. Then she met another man whom she became romantically involved with and he died from cancer at age 48. When she was 50 years old her mother, father, and grandfather all died. In addition, she told me that her brother had been diagnosed with cancer and she anticipated losing him in the near future.
I shared with this woman how she could get healing for these losses by making a list of the things she missed about each person, and then praying and asking the Lord to take it and carry it for her. The most painful loss was the loss of her mother, so we made a list of twenty-one things she missed about her mother and she prayed and asked the Lord to take her anger from her and carry it.
After she gave her grief to the Lord, I prayed and asked the Lord if there was anything that He wanted her to know. She said, “I see her smiling; I just see her smiling with her big, brown eyes.” I asked her how she felt while thinking about her mother and she said, “I feel happy; no sadness; very calm.” I asked her what she thought about this process and she said, “It’s so simple! I want to help my brother with his grief over my mother.”
This woman began praying about some of her losses on her own. Three weeks later, when she came back to see me she stated that she had no depression, in spite of having been depressed all her life. She said, “I feel everything is lifted off. I don’t feel the urge to crawl up in bed or hide and tell people to leave me alone.”
She was so excited about her freedom from depression that she gave her sisters a copy of the Set Free Grief Booklet and they wrote down their losses also and said they felt much better. One day she saw a woman in Walmart with white hair, and from the back of this woman it looked like her mother, and it made her smile instead of feeling sad. When I last saw her she said that on most Tuesdays she had been in a “black mood,” because her mother died on a Tuesday, but she said, “Now I feel good on Tuesdays and I have begun doing some visitation.” She laughed and told me, “My husband is blown away! He told the men at church that he had a brand new wife. Everyone should know about this!” Even though she was already free of her depression, she continued praying about some more sadness and the loss of her first husband, and she continued praying about all her other losses on her own.